~ My School

After talking to her, I feel that I am at fault. I shouldn't have ask her at that time. To be fair, I should be kept in the dark, Somewhere where nobody can find. I smoke and scold a lot of Vulgar words. I really made her have a bad impression on me. She said that I have run away once and she do not believe in a long term relationship. I am like so confuse. I forgot how long have I been keeping like that. I know what I did was wrong. I am not her knight and shiny armor I told her. But I can become, I can stop smoking and stop all my nonsense... I just need her to believe in me. Talking to her make me wanna love her alot... alot more. When I hold her, I feel so much happier. When I held her hand, It is like so cool. I am not handsome or what. But I have a strong heart.

After talking to her for like 20 minutes, I really know what is my weak point in her view. I am a smoker, I am a rude person in her view. I do not know what to do to make her like me. I believe all this while that liking someone is like liking a thing that you saw while walking in the departmental store. You may not have the money now but you can save up. It may take quite sometime but it all worth well. You get the thing you like and you can hold her like it is yours. I just wanna tell her, If she would ask me not to smoke. I will at that time throw away my Cig. I can promise her that. She will always gonna be my love, I promise. Right now, she will always gonna be the one. I can promise her that. And if next time I still like her, I will renew the contact. I can SUMPA..